Perfect person? Beauty? Looks?

Weather seems cold today. Hmmm...

Was thinking over some matters in the bus. Personally feel that no one is perfect in this world. Every person in this world likes to be pretty or handsome. Esp ladies. Most of the ladies like to be praise, be doted and care for. Some don't like sweet praised. I like to be doted and care for. As for praise, most of the time I got balance remarks. Either bad praise or good praise. If it is bad, I will take it as a lesson and learn from there. Every one is not 100% perfect in this world and every one sure will have at least a chance or two to learn. No one is so perfect that he/she need not learn anything or everything at all. Every one needs to learn, learn to grow or even learn to improve oneself knowledge or other areas.

I feel that I am getting fatter now and ugly. Hmmmm, don't really like my hair now. Seems like if I want to try to get back my old hair parting which is the side, I kind of dislike it. My hair is natural curl when it is short and my hair is quite thick so I went to rebond my hair during this year CNY. But seems like I did a mistake lately that causes me getting to dislike my hair day by day now. I tried to make it to the side and fringe bit irritating now, causes me quite hard to lower my head to do work or write stuffs unless I clip it. I felt so "zi bei" sometimes. Tried to change my dressing since 3 mths back, but seems like some cloths people see, will reminds them of someone and thus compare. So I don't really like that. Me is me. I want to be myself. Something that belongs to myself and I want to be unqiue.

Trying to find ways to diet but lately not sure whats wrong, trying hard to eat less but I get hungry easily. This afternoon lunch, I had my usual porridge but seems like I can't reduce my weight. Hmmm I am sure that every ladies on this world wants to be pretty, including myself. I also know that not only outer beauty seems important, inner beauty is important as well. Hmmm, what should I do? I want to be pretty, I want to be sweet, I want to be thinner. Arrrrhhhhh.. .. .....