Motivation

Lately having quite a low motivation level in everything. Don't know why but just feel quite sianz of everything lately.

School starting to feel stress as deadline are all next to each other. As for work, there isn't much for me to say coz the stress level is always there. Lately work enviornment is more and more like a war zone. Kind of easily making me frustrated.

This morning when I woke up, I feel totally sianz and not quite in a good mood. Don't know why also. Feel moody. Haiz. I think I will find some time to have a good rest. Feeling headache and moody easily.

OMG! Why am I having such feeling? Haiz. Seeing others posting the grads photos make me feel envy. But at least I feel bit motivated to get good grades. Like what my dearest said before, if you want to do it, make sure you do it well and not regret it. =)

Hopefully this week will be a peaceful week for me at work. Ta-Ta...

Thinking

Hmmm, thinking of going on a holiday on my birthday this year. Wonder where can I go. Dearest can't take so long leave so at most only take one day leave. Hmmm, KL? Malacca? Genting? Phuket? Hmmmm, went Phuket and Langkawi many years back before. Quite a nice and relaxing place.

Genting, Malacca and KL are nice too. Hehe, if going to Genting, I prefer staying at Highland Hotel which previously I have stayed before. Quite nice and comfortable.

Hehe. Hmmmmm

Yeah!

Yeah, finally it is weekend time. I just like the feeling of weekend. Hehe the time I can spend ample time for myself and my darling. Can't wait to see my dearest
later. Hehe...

Lately feel quite unwell but much better today already. Hehe, the weather outside is so nice... Hehe... Feel so fresh and energetic...

Giddy Thursday

Feeling a bit giddy after I woke up this morning. Hmmmm. Past few night have been bit headache but still manageable though. Hmmmm.

I guess I am feeling easily tired lately over at work and school. Especially school where all the deadline dates are so closely knitted with each other. Work is getting more and more like a war zone. I just want to continue enclose myself into my own world. Hopefully no one will bothers me. Haiz.

Bit feel like going to KTV already. Haha. Something that I will like to share with everyone here. There is this fragrance from L'occitane. It is the limited edition Rose Nuit De Mai Eau De Toilette.



The fragrance is so nice and long lasting. One of my colleague have recommended me that. It is bit expensive. However the stock in Singapore have sold out. There won't be any more stock coming in.

Low morale

Ever since what happen for the past few weeks, I feel so disappointed and sad with the company I am in now. Kind of feeling very low morale. Can I ever see my future in here? I wonders. But I do not want to give up the forest just because of some trees.

I did nothing wrong and I wonder why people just like to pick on me. Especially those people who are not the bosses. Haiz... Should I go to HR and complain or not? Haiz.

I can't wait to be transferred out of these crazy section and move to another section. I just want to work peacefully and do my best for the company. Too bad, my boss eventually don't appreciate. But I am glad that some of the other bosses do appreciate. Thats boost some of my morale level here already.

My dearest will not be in SG this week... Hope that he can come back fast... When I am feeling down or stress, beside going to KTV will make me destress and relax, seeing my dearest will make me happier. =)

~Jia you!~ I really need some words of encouragement from now on... If not I guess I will tender immeditately already. Why suffer from all these? Haiz...

Sianz

Feeling quite sianz over work issue lately. Not quite a very good mood but I will try not to show it. Don't wish my dearest to worry for me also. Hmmm.

Something happened yesterday which was quite lame and childish. Haiz but such things are known as super office politics. I don't remember saying anything or doing anything but in the end....... Haiz this month is not a good month for me. But I will still look ahead as my consciences is clear. I did nothing wrong also.

Thinking back, I feel that since my consciences are clear, why should I bother so much? But it is the mentally torture that is going around that makes me feel tired. Many times lately in this month, I feel like getting out of that place. But however if because of all these reasons I tendered, not worth it. The reason will not because of work but it is the people surrounding the work.

Although I have make a decision two weeks back, how I wish I am able to faster move on. I will not give up the whole forest just because of one rotten tree. Haha that is what one of my big boss whom I respected told me. One of my close colleague also told me that it is not worth it. I agreed with them.

Now, I just hope to be able to faster move on. I will continue to do what I am suppose to do but however I will block myself off from the surrounding from now on. It is safer to be in your own world. Haha...

Weekend is arriving in few hours time but I am sure it will pass fast because of my hectic school schedule. Tomorrow class from 12 to 3 then follow by 3 to 6. Haha I got to rush from one school to another school. Haiz. I guess now the only motivation I have at this moment is studies and my dearest. Haha...

May god bless me with a better day from now on. =)

Wednesday Blurry Blue

Two more days before another weekend arrive. Can't wait for weekend to arrive faster and pass slower.

I need a break, a good real rest. Lately, felt so tired easily. I guess all the work issue and I still have to cope studies are quite mentally draining. Now my motivation at work is not quite high. Haha. Recently just requested for a transfer to another team. I am unable to work with someone who are so vulgarities and think that she is that smart. Someone who don't respect others and expect people to respect her? What the crap!

Just so tired in the office. Everyday I am counting down to go home. Haha... My dearest is changing company real soon. Hmmm will miss those time where I will bump onto him when having lunch. Haha... =p

Thinking of having something nice either in Nov or Dec this year. But I guess most probably will be Dec as my birthday falls on a Monday. Hehe then I can just take one day leave and have a long weekend. Feel like going to Malacca, Penang, KLCC, Genting..... Haha remember those good old days when I go there few years back. I think the last time I went to Malacca was when I was in ITE days in year 2002. Hehe... Anyway, anywhere will be fine as long as it is with my dearest. Hehe.

What is my birthday wish this year? Hmmmm, something. Haha. And perhaps I can get the Samsung Galaxy phone when I renew my plan by end of this year. Hehe... But that is to expensive for a birthday wish. Hmmmm, but there is one thing for sure that I will want for my birthday this year. Hehe only my dearest will know coz I have been saying it already since few months back. =p

So fast November is coming. Can't wait to come fast. 74 days to go. Woohoooo so happy whenever I think about it. Hehe. It is also time for me to shred some weight. After last Saturday buffet, I have gain again. Haiz.

Plan
- Eat light breakfast only (i.e. cereal)
- Normal lunch but avoid oily food.
- Eat light dinner without rice/noodles

Once after my house nearby sports complex is in operation, I will want to go thrice a week. At least two times a week minimum.

~Jia you!~

Total Tiredness

The weather outside is bit hot lately. Hmmm... Don't really like the feeling of it but no choice. Haha... =p

Today is Friday, the 13th. Although it is like any other normal days, not quite a good number though. I woke up quite early in the morning today and recalled that I was disturbed from my sleep in the middle of the night by some noise which I can't remember what/who was it. Hmmm better don't think too much about it. Hahaha.

Work lately don't really have the motivation but eventually I have figured a way out and made my decision. My big boss who is very nice gave me some advice. "Never give up because of ONE person and you must try other alternative before giving up the company". Sad to say, she herself is leaving either the company or the project. She is a nice boss who think of her subordinate and respect them. That is why people will respect her as a boss.

My classes are having so far so good. Quite happy with this term as one of the modules are my favourite. Haha... Hopefully able to score very well for this term.

There is a song that I want to share in my blog. I quite like this song lately. Hehe...

給未來的自己



~Jia you~

Monday Blues

I am having Monday Blues today. =( Neck and right arm feeling kind of ache from the fall I had yesterday.

Vomitted this morning once I reach office as well. Haiz... Lately no mood to do work... Kind of feeling sianz and no motivation to work in such envrionment where so many screaming and vulgarities going around. Despite telling to the bosses but still the same thing going around. Or should I say that it turn out to be worst.

Right eye lid keep twitching today, wonder why.. Hmmmm... My dearest said to me that I should have taken MC so that I can rest at home but I can't... I have work that I suppose to submit today but I have not done yet. =( I don't feel like being an irresponsible person despite having such person in my team.

Hmmmm today got classes as well. Hmmmm no mood today.... =(