Sianz

Feeling quite sianz over work issue lately. Not quite a very good mood but I will try not to show it. Don't wish my dearest to worry for me also. Hmmm.

Something happened yesterday which was quite lame and childish. Haiz but such things are known as super office politics. I don't remember saying anything or doing anything but in the end....... Haiz this month is not a good month for me. But I will still look ahead as my consciences is clear. I did nothing wrong also.

Thinking back, I feel that since my consciences are clear, why should I bother so much? But it is the mentally torture that is going around that makes me feel tired. Many times lately in this month, I feel like getting out of that place. But however if because of all these reasons I tendered, not worth it. The reason will not because of work but it is the people surrounding the work.

Although I have make a decision two weeks back, how I wish I am able to faster move on. I will not give up the whole forest just because of one rotten tree. Haha that is what one of my big boss whom I respected told me. One of my close colleague also told me that it is not worth it. I agreed with them.

Now, I just hope to be able to faster move on. I will continue to do what I am suppose to do but however I will block myself off from the surrounding from now on. It is safer to be in your own world. Haha...

Weekend is arriving in few hours time but I am sure it will pass fast because of my hectic school schedule. Tomorrow class from 12 to 3 then follow by 3 to 6. Haha I got to rush from one school to another school. Haiz. I guess now the only motivation I have at this moment is studies and my dearest. Haha...

May god bless me with a better day from now on. =)