Confusion

Lately my mind feeling very confuse... Will my wish/dreams ever fulfill? I heard from somewhere before that working hard towards your dreams, eventually the efforts you will be paid off. There are some things that I yearn for... The particular dream/wish that I yearn is what I really yearn the most. I really hope to be able to have it.

I have been thinking for the past few days. I want to change. I want to change a different me. I want to be a different Pearline. Many times I look at myself in the mirror, I wanted to make some changes but it seems hard. I guess I might not be able to use to it but I will have to try and be used to it.

I see other people, able to put on a pretty and nice face from the start of the work to the end of the day. I know that because they spend time in between the day to touch up their face. I wanted to try that too. But eventually I am worried that my face having to go thru many hours of heavy makeup will make my face's skin condition worst. Haiz...

Will be going to another project soon on Tuesday. I have planned to make it a fresh start from there. Before that I will have to do more research first. I read an article just now on how to lose weight effectively without torturing yourself. I tell myself that I WANT to do that and I MUST.

Jia you!