Mentally drained.

Weather outside now: Cooling and going to rain.

My feeling now abit mixed up. I feel both mentally tired and feeling moody.  Everything seems to be up on my shoulders now. The only time I can do my own things is when baby is asleep. But however not much things I can do because anytime she be awake.

Looking back, my family now have a new member which is my precious baby girl. She may have really drained me, not because she is hard to deal but due to I have quite a number of chores to do but less time. The only time I can do the chores is when she is aslerp, thus lesser time for me to sleep.

Lately I realised something is not right with me. During the night and wee hours, I tend to feel moody and down. Tears flow once awhile without realising it. I also feel useless when my precious cries I do not know what she wants.

It is not that I don't want to sleep when she is asleep but I just couldn't sleep..  Each time my precious make some noise, I have the auto instinct to go to her and see if she is ok or not. But I can just ignore some of her noise? Say easy than done. Haha.

Time flew pass fast. My precious is one month and 3 weeks old.

It is time to rest while I can for now. At most if I cannot sleep, I will just lue down to rest my body and mind.

Off I go now... Ta-da...